When I dressed up, strided out of my company after lunch, seeing all the Christmas decoration along HuBin Road and XinTianDi, my mood was full of Christmas atmosphare as well. Yeah, time flies like stream flows. Christmas month again, all the reindeer, elf, bells, and Christmas spirit came into my brain, to let me aware: I have to think about what is the most important thing I got in this almost passed year; whom I should thank and to be grateful to; what I have to improve in the next coming year; what the next dream is... 

 

I believe, there is no better way to fly next year; even sky is not the limitation. Yeah, another one year almost passed. 

1. 12th---18th Dec Korea ( Should be Seoul, Busan, or Jeju hope so)

 

2. I plan to go to New Year Concert again. That should be at the end of Dec

 

3. Save at least cny1000 for next year German trip.

 

4. 24th Dec have to be at church this year. Christmas Eve should be in original Christmas place.

 

5. Ride horse again before the new year really comes.  :)

 

Hope this is the end of this year. All the wishes will come true. 

This Latin Dancing Course not only taught me how to dance latin, but taught me how to enjoy the procedure as well. Class was over, but dancing still. I finished my middle-lever dancing, but my next higher level just starts. So is my life.

 

Friends, Last doesn't mean worst, instead, last means first, and the best just comes later.

 

Till I asked that question, I guess, that's it. All my memory about those 5 years gonna be buried in deep heart. If everything before I love you doesn't count, then those 5 years is the thing which doesn't count.

 

I am a little disappointed about this result, cause somehow, I think, maybe there will be something happen if I can wait, but 5 years, if the result I want will occur by waiting, then I guess it has already occured. 

 

"Do you love me?" " Yes, I do ,but..." I think I already got my answer. NOt every question is suitable to BUT

"Do you want a serious relationship?" "Yes, I do, but..." I know the first few thinking which flashed in one's mind is most important, so relationship is not suitable to you.

 

OK, I let you go and let myself go. Tell myself no result may be the best result for us. In those 5 years: Thank you for hearing me, thank you for hurting me, thank you for caring me, thank you for teaching me ,thank you. Hope you could read this, or you'd better not.

Winter is coming silently, keep the pace with nature, change the background and the file picture as well to match this snowy season. When seeking for a proper picture, suddenly realize:

 

Things disappear, but memory is still there. When you can hardly forget which you wish you could forget, pictures are meaningless in this case. I missed too many pictures, but I can never miss those days which picture can describe--- --- I get the feeling back when I look at the Jordan's just now.

 

How can I choose:  the motional " I love you" or the long history? It is more like to pick up a pair of fabulous high heel and a pair of comfortable sneaker--- --- I wonder when I find there is no one picture of him in my folder.

 

Wordless, just need some time to refresh myself. Get out of the trap I set for myself.

 

 

11th Nov---11.11 Bachelor's Day, yeah again.

 

Single but cheerful, for teenages to 20's: We are at edge of changing, looking forward to new things, drinking, smoking, discoing... ... challenging. On that day, we gather together, drink beers sing songs to celebrate a little.

 

Single but fabulous, for 20's to 30's: We are at the transition of being mature, desiring for material world, job, clothes, shoes... ...diamends.  On the day, we are being alone, dress gorgously, enjoy the life which totally belongs to ourselves.

 

Single but still wish a chance to being engaged. Admit or not, single life no matter how cheerful, sometimes still feel lonely, no matter how fabulous, in a moment, still need someone to appreciate, no matter how cool, still need the one to warm us for a second.

I sent Elyn a message and the story happened.

Here is the script:

 

" I will go to Korea at the beginning of Dec"

" Really? Do what?"

(Wonder why she asked me so, it is obvious that I go there just for travel, ok let me answer then)

" Go study, and with ..."

" Waw, that happened, call you in 5 minutes"

(Oh God, she never called me actively, ok good sign)

Phone Ringing

" Hello, how's that happen, tell me in detail"

" Ok, it is not a big deal, it is cheap to study in Korea. But Elain you really believe this? "( I cannot control laughing.)

" You cheat on me? Do not tell me you cheat on me."

" Well, sorry. But how come you believe this?"

" Lily, I have wondered this, how come with him? and why is Korea? But you never cheated on me in last several years."

 

OK, that's a simple sentence, but I take it as a good comment. At least in my good friend's mind, I am a really quite honest person. Sorry, never cheat on you again.  :)

 

The moment another person left my life maybe forever. People always keep coming and leaving. We are getting older, while life seems getting easier. After this moment, it gonna be THOSE YEARS, THESE DAYS again.

 

When he left the office at the last moment, he gave me a hug which reminds me of some others who left my life years passed by. We will not cry any more cause leaving is a normal thing, we will not say " we must keep in touch" cause maybe we will not keep our promise, we will not wonder if he will miss me or not cause that's really not important any more--- All the importance is that the person who stay with us already left. So we wish him would be fine, all fine.

 

And instead, we give each other a hug which means a lot.

Friday, stay at home, get up lazily. Feel not as bad as last time back from horse-riding.

 

Yesterday, spent the whole day with my honey, take him to have a walk, run with him, and feed him. He is so handsome. My honey horse  :) And I am really good at horse riding now. You should try, when you run in front of others, you really feel so cool. This gonna be my monthly event from now on.