These days, I am homeless, live with my aunt and my sister, I feel my life is abnormally unregular. The earlier I want to leave home, the later I wish to back home.  As the whole day, I almost do not know what I do. Now, I understand, how important the home means.

 

People in this situation look forward to friends very much. We wish others will contact with us at this moment to let us not feel too lonely and by the way, we will have something to do. If you are lucky, you will feel nice to chat with your heart open, feel cool with your body open, feel relaxed with your mind open. Beautiful encounter is unexpected, it is the jealous thing in our life, the daily routing, boring life is the main stuff, which somehow, we still need to stare at.

 

Any time, we need perform ourselves, this is our own stage, no one can interrupt and change it.

Going to work today as usual, when getting off the bus, I walk on the same route, cross the road, and go to the pedestrian. Till the end of it, I suddenly found it was blocked.  I wonder how I can walk without looking.

 

Considering: Most of us always deal with stuff as our habbits, by our experience, but sometimes, it will be only trouble for ourselves. Although we walk as usual, we still have chance to look at the scene beside, just to have a glance. 

Mommy decided to decorate home again.

 

When I came back home from work today, surprised to see everything has been gone including my clothes. That's the hell for me, no clothes to change since now. :(  Looking at my empty room, I feel homeless.

 

I do not know if I still can survive without internet for at least 1 month. Remember last time, something wrong with my computer, only 2 or 3 days, I already felt out of the world. I am gonna miss you all the guys. HOpe you will miss me too. Think of me sometimes.

 

By the way, I hate waiting. Actually, I am waiting every day, for a message, for a call, for the exams, for the back day, and for someone.

People will only do stupid things once, but why I do it again and again. And if I think of it, and make a conclusion later, I will be surprised to find that it is around the same category. I never grew up or I insisted my principle too much in this changing world?

 

Why I do this to me, myself again and again? Why I put myself into this position again and again?

 

 

Leave home to work as usual, doing routine things.

 

These days, did not think too much, did not do too much, did not enjoy too much as well. Do not know how long this even mood gonna last.

 

It rains so hard in Shanghai city. In my memory, it seems shanghai hasn't rained for a long time. When I am walking in it, I feel it is kind of release.

London bomb, right after the success of its bid to host 2012 Olympic Games. People get deep down, right after the extreme heavily happiness. 

 

Thrundstorm right after several hot days in Shanghai; Plan cancelled right after the hottest discussion.

 

I wonder,This is life, get and lose, come and go, back and forth, but too many...

The reason I created this BLOG suddenly is that I really want to find a state to express myself to my dear friends, and also to those who maybe I know. During the procedure, I notice this writing thing is very interesting. I so love to do it now.

I changed the name here into 'Nature pricks me in my hearts'. Meaning, in this blog, what I say is from my heart, what I show you is my real smiling face to the life although sometimes, it is unfair, unexpective or even worse than what I imagine. So,  Let me sound our barbaric YAWP over the top of the world.

Last time, I went to church. I still remember what priest said. When God create us, God want us to be faithful, honest, and natural to each other. I wonder cann't we? I think yes we can.

Love all of you. Wish you will enjoy here.

Lufthansa German Airlines

 

Friend is at the edge of breaking up with his gf. I am so sorry about that.

 

Love is risky, you never know when it gonna snow during the hottest July. I do not prefer long-distance relationship, cause I was hurt by it. When you told your friend about your experience, no one will believe you, esp those who they themselves think are in the honey of love. Yeah, true, sometimes, something, you need to experience by yourself, then you will say------it is correct.

 

I just wonder if two people break up, if they so love each other, but break up at last, where does the love go?

 

 

For young girl, if she finds someone who can attract her, I think definetly she will go after, to purchase it no matter what happens. I am not that old, why I cannot have enough courage to do that again?

 

Are we becoming more clever to protect ourselves by not saying ' I love you' or just do not want more responsiblity to take? It is really distant when you are right beside the one you like, but he doesn't know it and maybe never knows it because of our changes.

I really appreciate those friends made in Jordan.

 

Today, I asked for half-day holiday to have date with my friends. It is really hot outside, and I think my heart is just as hot as the weather, cause it is really a long time for us not seeing. I'm afraid if we will have nothing to talk about after such an era. Actually there is no hug, no kiss, no too much excitement, only smiling, laughing, and memories together. Memories, light the corners of my mind, misty water color memories just like yesterday once more, which made me feel, we never ever forget about each other, we are living in our hearts.

 

We made a quick decision to have a trip next Sat, I hope that will be confirmed soon.

 

People do not like doing stuff again and again, such as Re-peat, Re-do, Re-force... That's really a torment. But there is an exception, we do like being thought about again and again, such as re-mind, re-union, re-member.  :)

 

I uploaded some pics of this reunion. Wish you will envy us.