Love is on the left while affection is on the right. Along the life-long path, it seeds and it blooms, which make this path full of fragrance and make the people who pass by not feel sad when stepping through the thron, not feel sorrowful when tearing down.

 

" I will leave China very soon."

" How soon?"

" In ten days."

" For what?"

" Mom is sick, have to go home and stay for a while."

" For how long?"

" Maybe one year."

" OK,You have to go back for this case."

... ...

" I have to tell you the truth."

" Sure."

" My working visa was cancelled and have to leave China in 10 days."

" What?"

... ...

On 12th of September, we met. Mr.Big and I. Originally, I did not want to meet him because of some little arguement between us and I want him to be unhappy by not going. We talked, we discussed, we thought, that could be a "mission impossible" to re-valid the visa. But finally, we still laughed. This is a special feeling when being with him, Mr. Big. I called my friend majored in law to get familiar with the correct procedure of doing this after making clear of the situation. Due to the police's rudeness and uncivilized behavior, he had a serious fighting with them so that he got a serious result almost cannot be turned over. Well, for being self-respective, this result is too much. I cannot blame, because I know him and I support him; I cannot blame, because I think if I were in the same situation, I would do that too to maintain the reputation of my country; I cannot blame, because I might fall in love with that person from that moment.　

 

On the following days, he made his calls every day and run around to try his best; I made my own calls too to my friend in Turkish Airlines.

" Hey, it is me. Help me to find a booking, from PVG to IST on 20Sep,last name ..."

" YOu call me for this? Well, wait a second."

" OK, ... I have to tell you, he will leave soon, so..."

" Oh, Sorry to hear that, hey, I got it. It is HIS reservation."

..." Tell me ticketing deadline then."

"18Sep"

"... Let me know as soon as he purchases this ticket."

" Of course, I will. But will y ou go to the airport to see him off? How come this happened?"

" I do not want to say that. I have to go there and I think I cannot control myself at that time. Well, I have to work now. Thanks."

" Take care. See you."

 

I am wandering between being happy and unhappy. As usual, I pretend to be happy, to let my colleagues feel nothing special happened to me; But unhappiness is obvious sometimes, whenever I think of the airport or the flight, I will feel cry. Airport is not a beginning place full of imagination any more; it is an ending place instead.

 

Thinking about the passed five years or more, I still clearly remember how we met, how we started our conversation. We both know there is no result for us, but maybe I am still more serious than him. Like song singing: Because of you, I feel friend understands to listen more than lover does. Words now fail me to describe how I feel to him, although all my good friends do not like the relationship we have; I still resist myself.  In last five years, there are no pictures, no together time to travel, no live together, but he knows me quite well. He almost knows what I want, what I am thinking about. finally, I realized, we might be the same kind of person, selfish, but nice.

 

I will not go to airport on 20Sep, because he said, i worried that you might cry, and you would be sad, and me too. Of course, I know that's an excuse. I will just stay in the office to check the flight situation. You are right, If there is no official beginning, there should not be official ending. It would be so nice if no seeing off means no leaving, no leaving means no breaking, and no breaking means no ending. I have to say, " that's the end ". 

 

I will remember him, but I am afraid I will forget what he looks like.

Sometimes, I dream about having a fixed amount of money meanwhile stay at home everyday doing whatever I like. If people around you always tell you " Girls have second chance to make themselves comfortable life. " Will you be interested in that? I still do not belong to that group of girls, since I am proud, selfish and independent.

 

But I have to say, why should I make myself so difficult and hard? Anyhow, I still like to be myself. What a contradict!

NEWS: Shanghai Spring Chorus has 10th Anniversary Concert 

 

TIME: 10:00 a.m.---11:30 a.m.

 

PLACE: Shanghai Music Hall

 

PEOPLE: Famous chorus conductor, Ma Geshen; Shanghai Spring Chorus conductor, Xu Liangliang and Shanghai Spring  Chorus members including the most senior members who spent their youth with Spring.

 

COMMENT: People leave, people come; things change but feelings never. When we are together, the memories are still. Songs give us strength. Thankful heart thanks for destiny, accompanying our lives, encouraging us be ourselves. I saw a lot of old friends long time have not seen. With all the black suits on, we are still the same only when we are on the stage.

 

Congratulations to Spring, congratulations to Liangliang.